I need to chance the appearance of my presence

When talking to the arbitrator she was looking like my job does not count

I showed a catalog made, with the printed side of the pages, showing the bode 131 galaxy

like water under the bridge

She was blaming me for not being contacting them to get money when I sent emails and they did not answer me until they received court claim

She asked about how many hours and answered that can not be sure for fact that office keep the daily schedule. But I had a journal with the days I went

She told me to go to the labour department too

Was for 2,000$ good to buy apt

Some people, when old, should stay home to check the tv drama novelas

But my problem is that I could not see this coming, I was not able to see when she had some kind of preconception

My face was giving the idea of a low professional, or also the fact I was paid 15$ per hour, on a W2, for the 16 hours a week, while for other companies I was making 25 or 30

Same happen with some relatives, where they see still when you are a youngster, when they saw you at 13 or 17 years old

Another point of desperation come when they ask if you can help brothers find more jobs, when already I was doing it

Not steadily but given the fact they have nothing I think is better than nothing

Then I see another family with less drama, buying house, getting back to their country with more money just doing a simple job of cleaning factories floors

Why I m still thinking

All I need is to have some more connections

I used to have more, I warked for some big companies and now I see some wotk they do with low class web or posters see earth day ny

Maybe need therapy again?

Try to relate to people in a constructive way?

Or just forget it?